Trapped.

Went to a firm visit at a insurance company today. Went well I guess. One of the Directors invited me to apply and discussed the brillant future of the Mainland Chinese insurance industry development with me. Charted Financial Planner was what he was pushing. Even private wealth has their own certification now.

But, looking at those people in cubicles, talking on phones, tapping on their keyboards. Trapped. I don't want to live my life in a cubicle. Corner office. Looking at taxes and financial statements, investments, different products. What a waste of life! It's like, seeing your life shrinking into a small point. A small cubicle as a matter of fact. Salespeople sell. Actuaries calculate. IT solve computer glitches, accountants do their thing. They come to work. Do a little, joke a little. Discuss work, life, children, school, grades. Go home, family life, sleep. Then go back to work. It's the 9 to 5. Pay is not bad, I can imagine. Stable. Enough to afford a good home, food. With occasional splurges. It's what my parents have. More or less.

What then, do I want? If I can't be happy living a normal life? I should be grateful that I even have the chance to live a normal life. Much less be repulsed by it. Hmmm. . . start my own business. Work up enough cash, and then start acquiring other companies. It's how empires are built right? That's interesting. Not cubicle.

Been reading Marcus Aurelius' Meditations. As well as Art of War. Both good. Meditations, is, not suprisingly one of those books that gets you to think about yourself. Whle AoW is all about strategy, and how to dominate others, while keeping them in good enough shape to then govern, and for them to allow themselves to be governed over, by you, the invader. I can see why businesspeople like it so much. And politicians like Meditations. After all, isn't politics just about taking backstabbing, and still keep your character pure enough so that you may seem like a benevolent leader?

My nationality already excludes me as a politican in any country. Best I can ever hope for is a go-between, and a not fully trusted by either side one at that. Fate.