Sigh. Future.

As much as one does not want to think about it, it keeps hitting one in the face doesn't it? I don't want to do grad school, but then, working life is horrible. But then, as I am newly reunited with Candide, without trials and tribulations, without struggles and overcoming them, without setting ourselves goals and falling flat in our attempts to reach them, life is not life but a mere illusion.

Now, that sounds a lot better than my usual common prose doesn't it? It's pointless though, I could have said the same in a lot less words but it would sound a lot less nice. Maybe I am suited for banking.

Sigh. I wanted, when I was younger, to conquer the world. Why? Because it sounded interesting. And a lot better sounding than the rest. I'm selfish, but am working on being less selfish.

Ok, tired of thinking about my future, I'll see how far I can go, and go to grad school if it's necessary. I choose a vocational degree with an equally vocational path. I think it is the right thing given my stupid personality. Plus, economics research may be futile due to politics, but, it has effects long after one is dead right? Look at Milton Friedman (he may have been the root of this financial mess, deregulation, the man had too little faith in the greed and destructive power of man). And Frederick von Hayek. Thanks to him, we had the beginnings of capitalism.

Actually, turning to a more intellectual discussion (yes, despite appearances, I am in fact capable of one), is this recent spate of financial mess really the beginning of a new era? Post great depression, the world turned one of the planned economy. Of nationalised industry, of subsidised, government supported national champions to further the national interest. Sowed the seeds of communist and capitalist divide, when people realised that nationalisation could make some men a lot of money at the taxpayers expense. So, in actual fact, the communists were purer. :-) They took longer to realise the fruits of capitalism. Sigh, how do you expect me to be pure when reality is like this? When we are being lied to everyday to further the interest of a few men (and fewer, women) in power? Obviously, the only way of escaping this lie is to climb! THAT is why I wanted to climb. And to do that, I need to verify my status in life my getting a post-grad degree from a top 10 institution. :@ 烦恼。