Do we ever know what we want?

This stemmed from my breakfast order this morning.
The decisions I made from my coffee-less state were as follows:
1. I'm going to try something new. What is this chicken steak thing?
2. Well, I hate the ham, and I really want some bacon, so lets get chicken steak with bacon
3. Double egg is high cholestrol anyway, and I'm newly on a diet correct?
4. This canteen place depresses me, I'm gonna takeout and eat outside

Then I subsequently went up to the counter and placed my order for chicken steak with ham in chinese. Just shows how shit my language skills are. I seriously need to devote more time to my chinese readings. But there is no time!!! I spent all of yesterday looking for some data for my forecasting assignment. Went from hedge funds to BDI to trade stats(any trade stats that are asia related) and then, at the very last minute, after I had searched just about every database that was available to me and was contemplating whether or not I should call someone to ask them if they can search some databases that are not open to me, I found some good hedge fund data. So now, I'm back a full circle. I'm exhausted. I can't even bring myself to look at the data that I spent so much time searching for. I think I'll take a break for today. Study some monetary econ. Doesn't help that I'm skipping class right now I admit.

Oh yea, and we got 100% in Derivatives assignment!! Ok, so it was easy and the average was not far off that, but still. . . I'm proud of myself. Still have my quant hedge fund dreams intact. Isn't that so sad? I need grad verification for what I want.

Back to original topic then. Well, as I sat in these beautiful surroundings (I am desperate for anything green, you have no idea how much I miss Albert Park, or the bit outside OGH or even the balcony of OGG (oh I miss OGG)), eating my disgusting brekkie (fatty chicken with processed ham and disgusting white bread, no wonder why I'm gaining weight, not one of those things are low GI). As I ate more of it, it started getting better. "We can't always get what we want, but if we try sometime we get what we need". Rolling Stones. Correct la. So, actually, what we want is not important. Econonomics 101 right? Unlimited wants, limited supply. So in actual fact, we should focus on what we need. Makes for much healthier living really.

I am not going to pay more attention to that sometimes subtle distinction. Do I need that drink? Do I need that book? Do I need that top? If I simply want it, perhaps I should give it a pass.

Hm....I'll try it and see how it goes. Of course, this may of course just be some mental prep for my just starting diet. Sigh. It's hard being a girl. I suppose guys are no better. In HK they have to make a few million to get a decent girl. I have it better then, from that perspective.